I miss them so much. May is here, please treat us nicely :D

25 april 2013

Is been awhile,when i look through all the passage i wrote, i laugh, i smile.How can i be so silly when i was such a age.Not only that, grammar mistakes and disgusting words appear everywhere. Grow up please.

Now is been almost 10-11 months i din't update anything about me myself. So how was it?
How to start?
Start with them- the newbie exist in my life fill up with colors and also shit.

Satisfy?
ya,they are the one that always be with me and i also believe they will the one that accompany me go through another years in such a shit place.
People come and goes.Whoever also. Thanks for everything also.

6 month to go.

6 month ago.
Is been really a long while i escape my actual life,escape my blogging life and so much more.
Unfortunately, i'm still the same like ABC.

Okay that is it..... really nothing to say anymore.

October ,

Sukiya for dinner

Hey there,i know i know is been like a thousand or whatever word to describe this blog was abandon by me. I'm so sorry about cause i was busy about the final,the emo moment,the trip and so on. So as you can see on top here we have a charming photo of me ? Am i right? kay,i wont write more here so just enjoy the photo kay .

Movida moment with dudes and chicks 

not only that,i love auntie anne's deeply.

Nando's for breakfast

I think here is changkat ?

not enough so we bought one to spend the night.

Lastly the best gift i ever get :) CK FREE really for FREE for me. hahah..Thanks btw

Not that much but i really melt to the bottom of my heart. Loves all of you.

The boredness.

Already watched? Booyah ! Is me,i'm back for that missing time.Finals already pass and now i'm sitting back and wait for that shit result,although is quite hard compare with all the past year paper i did. Damm. But it past for few century for me so let forget about it.Not only that,we have only 1 week sem break,can i just report this Uni ? Few of my friend were back and left me here all alone preparing for another sem and works. Interviewed but the boss are too good to me, ask me to rest for so many week. haha, that's is so soper. Nevermind i will just spent this week with full of enjoy and fun kay :D

1.05 a.m

Like usual this time is the time that my face will turn serious because with no reason. Finals is coming and i still can act so sober.In my head i can't find any word that can describe myself but in here i will gonna start with my me mine.Before that, if you feel is nonsense to you please press the red button on your top right,thank you.

Day by day i just feeling so empty.The weather in the small lil town were so hot enough that nearly can treat it like having a sauna but but it isn't too bad cause it have it own season.If you're a kamparian you will know what am i talking. Yea,the weird thing in here is every Wednesday  that will be a little rain visiting us,and when it reach nearly july till september,that is totally a raining season.So,i actually can't complain anything about it.

The digital clock turn to 1.14 a.m now, currently listening to some soft music to make myself relax,the raindrops is so nice enough to make you feel sleepy.With a cup of hot choco,everything makes perfect.This is what my dearest taught me before.Scrolling Facebook and look at all those owl posting here and there,scrolling tumblr-my fav sites,and this wont make me stop cause the stuff there is always freaking awesome.Plan to upload my vlog but it seems like can't because all those video i make have been totally out of control,all show distort scenes.

And right now,all i can want to make my insomnia get away is have a cup of vodka or beer to makes everything calm. 

My love always doesn't show it well, i admit i'm a failure in all this thingy.I just can say that i'm so sorry to have me.Is hard to makes it perfect or makes is always yours.This the reason i always judge that there will no forever in life cause of few claim that i made.I love or what i dislike will always me and God knows.Time flies,days went,and i'm still standing at the same place waiting for someone to hold me carry me.The traffic light went green to red and red to green but it din't seem to angry each others.Why human need to have hard feeling ? Why humans need to have warm embrace? 

Don't feel weird above this photo cause this is what calls natural.What humans suppose to be like. Not only that this is also what i call comfortable,you should try it when you're ready..haha..okay back to this,so what did humans still wants ? with all they have why humans still have to be so dramatic around or so vanity.Stop it,cause this is so call Human! Human always wont so dogmatic why? cause we are born to be this way,haha..this is so like begging the question.Come on guys,be mature this is what i always told myself.Besides that, will you guys ever compare yourself with others? Will you? I know sure you will compare yourself with others that are popular,that are pretty,handsome,rich,gay and so on. STOP IT. i din't mean to have any personal attack anyways cause this is what humans do? so do i...but just but when we turn another way,turn a bit to the right or left or rotate your own brain to compare with others that are born to be week,poor,suffering everything.Will satisfy came around that moment? So, i always tell myself why and why and why i need to be compare to others? why i need to keep changing myself to same like others? maybe as what i learn this is like playing a role of bandwagon.

Eyes keep blinking,and its the time to say hi to my bed again. Goodnight peeps, see you in the another new post :)

God bless you all with his lovely embrace :)

Heart On Fire

Hey everyone, finally i'm back with sober heart i have. Before i start writing i read my whole blog again and again, just one thing i can catch in my brain is that i'm growing to be more tough, be more brave, be more independent and be more crazy toward every lil stuff around me. It been a long while, i disappear in this lil hell that looks like heaven , but now i can surely promise it will gain more and more about me, my feeling, or anything in it. Time flies, is just like a click of the camera and i just waste a film. In these days, i keep repeating the same things, going to Uni is not that bored either happy, even i'm just in the first sem in here. Things  changes so do i. Just done with my midterm test. I just can say it is not like what high school did, obviously i know.Is just like x100 times difficult in it , but so on i still able to cope with it. I believe, I believe with the Love and Spirit that Father God gave me is always that much. Just no one can understand it when you really feel it.
Now is almost the end..the final is around the corner. Just around two week i got to say hi to my final .Nothing much i can say now,action more than words. Just beg the laziness in my body can shoo away. Before that, means now i have a week of holiday,ehh, actually not can't counted as holiday because the replacement class still on for us,ehh, not again is on for me.Why? cause all of my friends are back, just like they are celebrating 'Raya'? JK k..
So this week i just normally, soberly, past trough it with hanging in my room, singing, dancing in the toilet , talking alone, or keep mumbling....hahah, that actually is me ! I mean another me. :)
Besides that, as you're one of my true or stalker, you will notice something interesting. To me is interesting but to you maybe not. I just can't say more here. I just felt sorry about it.
Isn't it life should be so tough? should be different that what we always want it to be? There are always can't be judge with it. Oms, i'm so like a critical thinker E:
Okay,okay,i will stop it now, so in the end of this post, i wish that everything gonna be alright. So stalk me in the other post and these few sites of mine :_

http://myonlyzombie.tumblr.com/
https://twitter.com/NickSymone