life?....hw cum....hw cum....
haha~my life....full of happyness...sadness...lonelyness...alot alot...
all because...a step...a move....a option i choose...
and it will be another way...thing....
i'm not blaming everyone tat gv me sad,happy,lonely...
i jus blame wat i done....to u all...
Faith?...are they?
i belief in faith...even i fell down...
faith is jus a thou...ntg speacial...
bt i trust them....cos it control everythg in life...
my life mayb...
i been through alot....jus like in hardship..i aso won gv up..
cos i belief..i can live more better if i could...
so dun say i cant...i belief...if i do hard...evrythg will change for me..
i pray...i beg...i cry....
jus for free?...haha....is hard...vry dificult..
yesterday...i thk...imagine....and it remind me...why i will choose the step let it go?...why...the answer very easy....jus because..i love you enough...i jus cant so selfish...haha..mayb...it is foolish...or nonsense...bt it reality...i duno y..sudenly cant breath whn thinking tat...bad guy...jus let me be...bt lat least i noe...i ever love you..deeply...i noe it is unaccepteble..bt..i cant say anythg...to spoit ur hapiness..freedom..i hope everyone aso hopeful want it...
let it go...is the option to choose...ntg mus more better to take it over...
i noe...my time is jus a wasteful to you...haha..mayb i'm not tat gud..or best...
bt my memories...owes will came out wit a smile...tat u owes gv to me...even sumthg destroy it...it still be ther...
last night...i dream agn..and agn...until 12 i awake...wit my tears.
i suddenly nid a warm hug...a hug u gave before...bt tis jus a dream for me...i use my whole energy...spirit to get away from all tis...until i ly down...until i cant breath..until i eat pain killer...
still wont use...why...why owes happen on me...my energy wont use..anymore...to let it forget...and my heart keep stracthing..wat could i do...
wont live witout happines...jus becos u ever be my oni one...
the ring...have become a prove...tat we wont get bck together..
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